During the month, I realised that I was trying to come up with explanations to combat the pain. This was a clear unconscious strategy to separate myself and protect myself from the pain. Trying to understand other’s points of view, to work out where I went wrong in the process, to explain it away as a form of karma or a way of life – nothing was helping, so I tried even harder. While washing the dishes one day, the unresolvable thoughts and feelings were going round and round inside of me and I realised that it just was. It was just pain. So, just being with the pain for what it was – not trying to find an explanation, the pain diminished and I could just be.
George Santayana is known for the sayings, "Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it".
It’s in the reaction that narrows your focus to just the limiting beliefs, the glass barrier. Putting all your energy into getting through the obstacle, only reinforces the existence of an obstacle. Whatever it is you need to fight or flee from, let it go. By doing this, you widen your focus and the best action to take becomes obvious.
And those little fly eyes and wings are perfectly capable. Trust me, you are perfectly capable. New beginnings require letting go of the past – and this is best done through no longer reacting to it anymore. Then, you can widen your focus – take in your surroundings –let life guide you. Sometimes it seems like you are moving further away –but what you are heading towards could be just around the corner.