Only a pure and genuine value for the truth will override the need to ‘feel-good’. Such ‘feel-goods’ as in staying positive, feeling comfortable, being strong/tough, staying safe or hidden, having happy-happy-joy-joy feelings (especially about yourself), being the ‘good’ or ‘right’ person, being productive. Not that there’s anything wrong with
the above, but those who have a genuine value for the truth have gotten to know their own brand of ‘feel-good’ – not to kill it, but to be aware of it in the event when the ‘feel-good’ is in conflict with the truth.
The truth is that there is no need to search for the truth. Searching for it is a red herring – one that will keep you
searching for life. The truth is available in any given moment, but it is your own filters that distorts it and shades it from your awareness. And the most powerful filter is your need to ‘feel-good’ at all times. This is not to be confused with your heart, which encompasses a different vibration – one of joy, freedom and inner strength. The heart holds deep compassion, allows for spontaneous emotion (including anger, sadness and fear), experiences connection to all things, and allows an openness of mind that invokes intuition. The heart summons true living and real response. So sometimes, being in your heart is very uncomfortable. Actually, it is like this quite often.
Recently, my daughter has been going through the transformation into teenager-hood and has been quite hurtful in her attitude to the rest of the family. One of my beliefs of being a ‘good’ mother is being the role model of a functional person. This was based on my childhood views of my own mother, who most of the time was a functional and competent woman. But there were times she often fell apart.
So, how do you come to the truth in any given moment? You can’t come to the truth unless you hold the premise that there is a truth that exists, beyond the dilemmas and dramas. It starts with a real desire for the truth even if in conflict with yours or other’s ‘feel-good’ mechanisms.
And from my experience, it is often very very simple. So simple that it is uncomfortable. It is often the ‘place’ you didn’t want go in the conversation, the feeling you didn’t want to feel, the thought you didn’t want to think, the action you didn’t want to take and/or the thing you never even conceived of. It truly was ‘outside’ of you when your filters were up. Once you ‘went there’, the truth was simple and obvious.
Did the truth suddenly come inside of you? No – you expanded and encompassed the truth. Actually, it was a part of you all along.
With the light in your heart, death itself is transformed into a door, and you enter into the universal spirit; you become one with the ocean ~OSHO
There is no need to search for the truth as if it was outside of you. Truth encompasses all – it is the bigger picture.
It holds the good, the bad and the ugly – and yet it doesn’t judge or define. Your filters do not actually separate you from the truth, they just cloud the truth. As OSHO once said, “This cloud has to be dropped. And it is just with your decision to drop it that it will disappear. You are clinging to it - the cloud is not interested in you, remember it.” Remember (especially at a time when you need it most), you can know the truth at any given moment – just drop the belief that you are separate from it.