Have you ever felt... anger? Of being manipulated, used... Undervalued... Unseen, unheard, ignored. Feeling rage at the injustice, that all around you, everyone is succeeding, heard and valued. To put your heart on your sleeve and have it knocked back. Rage that makes you want to throw your hands in the air, destroy it all. To listen to snide comments to your face, speaking aloud all your faults, your lack of worth, your imperfections. To throw it back in their face, childish words, spitting hate. Or overhearing... knowing that others scheme to take away what you want. Burning resentment. Feeling your boundaries invaded, carelessly. The burning rage of injustice, boiling your blood, heat radiating, jaw locking...
Have you ever felt... guilt? Feel the heavy burden on your heart. Knowing you must do something possibly unforgiveable, something that can’t be undone. Feeling the weight. The shame. Not wanting to share, keeping it a secret. But feeling bound to continue – knowing what’s right and wrong. Being stuck in a dilemma, knowing you must take a life, undo a wrong that you played a part in. That you neglected, it was your fault. You are the one to blame for it all falling apart. You should have... noticed, paid more attention, been prepared. Then it would’ve been OK. Then this burden in your sinking heart, this heaviness, a ball and chain on your consciousness, your shoulders curving inwards protecting you, would not be there...
Have you ever felt... fear? That time is running out. That money is slowly dripping from your hands, from your bank account. Feeling paralysed, uncertain. Not knowing what step to take. A feeling of pure dread and terror – not knowing how to survive. Clinging to what you know. Afraid to hear that reply. Afraid to be grilled, criticised, shown that you actually don’t know. Afraid to take that step that may lead to more wrong. Questioning – which is the right way? What else do I need to know? Feeling that you don’t know. Seeking, there must be a golden key, somewhere out there. The body feeling frozen, locked in a cage, vigilant and ready to run away, not think about it anymore, feel like you are sinking in quick sand...
Have you ever felt... grief? Overflowing and numbing sadness. Overcome by emotion welling up from your heart. Losing a loved one, a pet, a child. Knowing there is nothing that you can do – feeling the grief even before the loss. Their eyes connecting with you, and then watching those eyes lose their life. A lifeless body – an empty shell, no more connection. When your child pushes you away with their words. When you are unable to share your love. When your lover looks at you with disdain. When no one is there to hold you, tenderly when you need it most. Feeling of pain as your heart contracts and your tears pour over. Or just numbness, the body cold and lifeless like the one you’ve just lost...
Have you ever felt... bliss? Pure joy and connection. Spinning round and round like whirling dervishes, eyes closed, one hand to heaven & one to the ground, as they remember the divine. Face filled with bliss, kissed by divine love. Feeling of being wrapped in the wing of angels, as you watch that soul slowly disintegrate and reconnect with all that is. A beautiful essence. A feeling peace and tranquillity as the plants rustle in the breeze also watching. A deep connection. A feeling of life’s melody. Clapping to the music, like a child, buying into the game, taking on the challenge. A kaleidoscope of movement and flow with stillness and silence. A reconnection to your heart, of play and connection – a depth, a bliss with the remembrance as you taste again the divine and your divinity...
If you have any of these symptoms, then don’t worry. It’s called being human. There is no known cure. Only experience.
Have you ever felt... fear? That time is running out. That money is slowly dripping from your hands, from your bank account. Feeling paralysed, uncertain. Not knowing what step to take. A feeling of pure dread and terror – not knowing how to survive. Clinging to what you know. Afraid to hear that reply. Afraid to be grilled, criticised, shown that you actually don’t know. Afraid to take that step that may lead to more wrong. Questioning – which is the right way? What else do I need to know? Feeling that you don’t know. Seeking, there must be a golden key, somewhere out there. The body feeling frozen, locked in a cage, vigilant and ready to run away, not think about it anymore, feel like you are sinking in quick sand...
Have you ever felt... grief? Overflowing and numbing sadness. Overcome by emotion welling up from your heart. Losing a loved one, a pet, a child. Knowing there is nothing that you can do – feeling the grief even before the loss. Their eyes connecting with you, and then watching those eyes lose their life. A lifeless body – an empty shell, no more connection. When your child pushes you away with their words. When you are unable to share your love. When your lover looks at you with disdain. When no one is there to hold you, tenderly when you need it most. Feeling of pain as your heart contracts and your tears pour over. Or just numbness, the body cold and lifeless like the one you’ve just lost...
Have you ever felt... bliss? Pure joy and connection. Spinning round and round like whirling dervishes, eyes closed, one hand to heaven & one to the ground, as they remember the divine. Face filled with bliss, kissed by divine love. Feeling of being wrapped in the wing of angels, as you watch that soul slowly disintegrate and reconnect with all that is. A beautiful essence. A feeling peace and tranquillity as the plants rustle in the breeze also watching. A deep connection. A feeling of life’s melody. Clapping to the music, like a child, buying into the game, taking on the challenge. A kaleidoscope of movement and flow with stillness and silence. A reconnection to your heart, of play and connection – a depth, a bliss with the remembrance as you taste again the divine and your divinity...
If you have any of these symptoms, then don’t worry. It’s called being human. There is no known cure. Only experience.
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